Drive to Holsworthy

I have actually lost count now how many weeks I have been holed up at home, cocooned from the nasty weather, but it’s at least three weeks and could easily be double that.

This week I had a task that couldn’t be put off any longer. I had a cheque that I needed to put into the bank. I could have posted it in, but we need the money as fast as possible, so I needed to put it in by hand.

So I girded my loins and drove to Holsworthy. It’s quite a nice, country drive, about half an hour from Bude (I keep to the speed limit – it’s doubtless possible to get there quicker if you don’t). I wasn’t overjoyed to go as I had no company, and that always makes it harder, although I find driving largely okay provided I know where I’m going and I know where I can park.

But because I had no money, I couldn’t park close to the bank, I had to park in the Waitrose car park which is free and walk up the hill. Not far, about 5 minutes each way, but – you know, walking!!

I did it, and didn’t have any panic attacks, and so I popped into the co-op to buy myself a drink and a snack as a reward on the way back to the car.

If I were feeling stronger (and richer), I would have gone into Waitrose there. It is really such a civilised shopping experience compared with Morrisons etc. Sainsbury’s in Bude is also quite pleasant, and the Bude co-op is usually nicely empty too.

But not this time. I walked straight in, straight out and straight back to the car. The weather that day was nice so I enjoyed the fresh air and sunshine and the beautiful view over fields from the top of the Waitrose car park. But then I went straight home and slept all afternoon.

Small steps turn out to be quite exhausting.

Sorry no photos. Still no new phone. Feel free to donate to the Bude Agoraphobics Benevolent Fund.

Trip to Morrisons

So, as I alluded to in my last post, I am a (hopefully recovering) agoraphobic.

I never previously considered myself an anxious person (although I suspect my husband might disagree because he is so laid-back that he thinks hippies are highly strung! 🙂

But we have had a run of hard times, culminating last year with our landlord evicting us – not because we were bad tenants, or because we weren’t paying the rent: we were good, regular rent-paying tenants – but simply because he wanted to sell the house. My friends in the US were shocked and appalled that such action is legal, but here in the UK, tenants have almost no security, even when it’s the landlords who are bad, as in our case.

Our old house stood empty for almost a year while our greedy landlord learned the hard lesson that greed doesn’t always pay. And needless to say, I don’t have a lot of sympathy for him.

So, here I am, traumatised! Really not liking the house we are in now, but ironically stuck inside a lot of the time because going out sets off the anxiety, and I find ways to avoid going out unless absolutely necessary. Shopping deliveries have been a ‘life-saver’ in that regard.

But I am on the mend, hopefully, and trying to make sure that I do step out as much as I can.

So far this year the weather has been pretty horrendously un-outviting (humour me!) But since today was a little brighter, I girded my loins and got myself out… To the supermarket. Morrison’s in fact. By car. Not my favourite place, for sure. (And no pictures, obviously) But I did it.

One of these days – perhaps in the summer, I will actually start walking to places from home again but, for now, going by car and not having a panic attack inside was a small achievement.

So, yes, I do hope that my next outing will be more fun and joyful than a supermarket!

And it will be really great if you can forgive me for the boring blog without pictures so far, and help me with encouragement and accountability to keep trying 🙂

Finding New Favourite Places

I’ve lived in north Cornwall for coming up for 5 years in March 2016, but I haven’t really properly investigated my local town or much of the countryside or coast around north Devon and Cornwall. I wanted to love the place, but I haven’t enjoyed being here nearly as much as I thought I would. But I know it is one of the most beautiful places in the world, and I’m incredibly lucky to be here, so I want to learn to fall in love with where I live.

I’m a city girl who has found the learning curve of the cultural shift from city to the countryside and a country town a big challenge, and I haven’t got settled at all.

So this year, one of my New Year’s Resolutions will be to thoroughly investigate all the best things about Devon and Cornwall in general and Bude in particular, and discover some new favourite places. To keep myself to this fun resolution, I thought that I could use the accountability of posting reviews, and it might be a fun record of my discoveries.

I will aim to post at least once a week, but since I have other blogs, I can forewarn you that it might be somewhat erratic. But I’ll do my best. I didn’t get a new camera or phone for Christmas, sadly, but I’ll do my best to try and get some good snaps to post, and a better camera/ phone is top of my list of things to buy for myself when I can.

So I hope anyone reading has had a great Christmas, and I wish you all a very happy and productive new year.

Over to you:

I would love to hear from anybody with local knowledge with recommendations of places to visit.

What are your new year’s resolutions?